SLIM AND JIM - with audio

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Slim was slimmer than Jim
This matter made Jim quite a crier
He denied the fact
That he was twice as fat
Making Jim the fatter latter liar

Shalom Bayit - (Peace of the Home) with audio

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Shabbat Shalom, they said as each came to the door
First came the early birds, and then more chaverim, (friends), trickled in,
Followed by pilgrims bearing gifts of wine
Their faces lifted up our home bringing blessings upon us
The air began to cool down from the 95 degree temperature
As they each began to help prepare for the evening
It was still light, late afternoon and summer

A long set of tables had been placed with chairs set all around
Some guests helped put down the table cloths and I left off to change clothes
Soon it was time to begin and reaching for some red wine
I returned to the tables now beautifully adorned and filled with happy young faces
A calm easy evening breeze blew and the transformation was complete
The air was now afresh with the scent of the nearby jasmine and roses
Twightlight arrived, sending the temperature plummeting to a relaxing 75 degrees

The crickets danced, hummingbirds hovered above the red bougainvilleas
Little birds chirped and the morning doves coo'd
Many of our guests laughed in conversation, some sat quietly, eyes shining brightly
To my right by the fragrant jasmine sat my princes smiling and joking
The strength of my youth, our older and younger son
With their mother coming, going and joining us once again
All the frustration and stresses of the week fled away
The sweetness of the gathering fell upon all like a tefillah and tehillah,
(prayer and song of praise)

The gentle flowing air whispered in the ear
And played the little group of souls like Mendelsohn's nocturn
Alluding to what must have been for him a longing
For something wonderful realized here in this night
In each beating breast, and eyes full of the wonder of life
Songs, B'ruchas, (Blessings), wine, challah and festive feasting
Yai yai yai, yah yah yah, lai lai lai, Maschiach, Maschiach, Maschiach
And HEY! We sang, led by the young teacher, who was inspired by the flower

Parshat Naso, 176 verses to touch the senses more than any other,
Coinciding with the longest day of the year,
Dividing sacred and the profane, the lunar cycle,
Day and night, the Jewish Calendar year of 353 days
First three, then five, followed by seven
A census of Shalom Bayit,  Shabbat shalom and
The number of our guests,
Recounting Aaron's blessing
Hashem Bless you,
Hashem lift up his face
Hashem Shine upon and grant you Shalom

The moon pregnant with desire, but at first shy,
Peered down at the scene from behind the palm branches
Then moving leisurely crossing over stars in the night
Her delight burst forth upon us reflecting a greater glory
O, Tidal beauty fret not, even though you are a world away,
Tonight you are here with us, joining in our celebration
Our spirits welling up in joy as waves within us
Welcoming the bride, hearts overflowing as one
With the hope of all creation among the host
That the creator might dwell with us,
Among us, to make all things new

So it was this night, in the faces of our children,
And their friends, mixed up in the laughter
Kabbalat daughters and sons at rest with us
Here in this brief yet eternal season of time
The Shabbat refreshes and awakens to life
Makes us hope in the coming of the Messiah
To pray for the peace of Jerusalem city of gold
As Hashem makes his face to shine within us

So we ate, drank and chatted passionately into the night
Playing cards, drinking tea, and eating birthday cake
Until it was two in the morning and the stars tearing up,
Pleaded with us: go to bed,  so we said, lilah tov, goodnight,
Shalom Aleichem, Shabbat Shalom, until our guests had departed

Then each one of our little family retired to the inner recesses of our home
Where we sank down upon the pillows and blankets
Falling into unconcerned sleep, safe, contented and at peace
Resting at the foot of Jacobs ladder
With angels in attendance.

A day at the Farm - with audio link

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The sun is bright, brassy and hot,
Higher in the mid morning sky than the chicken-hawks
Circling, and gliding effortlessly overhead. 

Here she comes down old 2 lane Route 8
Eye piercing glare reflecting a splash of light
Off of the chrome trim on her black 1940s Mercury.
Aunt Annie stretched TALL and  GRAND against the horizon
She moved like a Macy's day parade cartoon character
Sailing along, floating high above us little people.

Aunt Annie, who was 96 yrs old and loving life,
Had just stopped by the old country log house
Taking a break from her door to door Mary K cosmetics sales.
The log house, owned by my grandparents,
Was already 200 yrs old and a historical landmark of
Old Middlesex Township, not far from Glade Run dam

There she stood, like a sapling, all 6 foot of her;
Ramrod straight and skinny as a pole.
I loved her poofy soft hat with brim and daisy flower.
Aunt Annie wore a black dress with
White polka dots all over and a white lace collar,
Accompanied by black calf stockings and deck shoes.
I could not detect any make up other than a little circle
Of dark maroon/purple lipstick, and a black beauty mark,
Or was that just a large mole?

Then it happened, just like before, here came that giant smile.
The tree bent down low and kissed my cheeks.
Ouch, Aunt Annie's kisses were like
Smooching with a hair brush,
As I encountered the black whiskers on
The lower part of her perpetually happy loving face.

Aunt Annie had arrived, survived and triumphed over a tragic past
Her faith in God and man undiminished.
She was here embracing life in the singing countryside
Still driving and working every weekday.
Aunt Annie's closest relative and dear friend Lovey
Had died of consumption (T.B.) when they were young teens.
As a young woman, Aunt Annie, with her friends and cousins
Had all gotten together and played the forbidden Ouija board.
She and her fiance' were informed in one session that he would die soon.
Aunt Annie's intended was killed a few weeks later in a car accident.
The Ouija board was quickly disposed of in hastily built fire.

She stood there like a great dandy Sunflower,
Bringing her goodness to us all, changing the faces
Of Adults, elders and children alike
With the radiating energy of her joy.

The mockingbird called,
And the pussy-willows swayed above the swamp grass -
Behind the log house just below the hill topped by woods.
The wasps and bees kept to their business of flowers,
And nests in the eaves and trees.
The ground was black with richness and moisture,
Topped with knee high thick wild flax, wheat, oats, and barley
Mixed up in grass, milkweed, goldenrod, mustard plant and weeds.
 Dogs barked off in the distance and
A howl came from somewhere far off in the woods.

Up atop the grassy field beyond the garage
To the right, as one looked down from the road,
I could hear my cousins voices coming from the pool behind their home.
My sister and I thought their mom, and our aunt, Theresa
Might be a witch and so we were mostly afraid to go there.
Aunt Theresa was married to my uncle Joe the artist and photographer.

Uncle Joe had seen his share of struggles with polio as a teenager,
And with the bouts of disappointment that came with it,
As well as the struggles to become a professional,
To be able to earn a living in the mysterious world of art.  
The one time I did go to their house, aunt Theresa made us kids
Peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with milk
But, she didn't seem all that happy about it, so I kept an eye on her.
A little ways further up the road as it curled to the right and crested,
Teenage boys worked on a tractor-trailer truck engine.
You could hear their voices as well.
It was amazing the way sound traveled in the country.

Grandmother, whom we called Mimi,
Said that a recent paving of the road had ruined the well water.
I couldn't tell as it always tasted strange to me and one never knew
What might come out of the faucet;
Last time it was a big black spider that scurried away under the sink.
While out exploring the side of the garage, I found a few dead cats.
I ran to tell my grandmother about it.
Mimi, I asked, what happened? Dogs got em. she responded.
Why? I asked once again. Well I guess that's just what they do.
They get a cat and shake them by the neck until they're dead.
Mimi didn't talk much, and certainly not to children.

She was always kind and nice to us,
But there was a sadness about her.
She had been a woman of high society in her day.
Mimi had traveled to New York as a girl to hear Caruso sing,
And traveled by ship as a teenager to London, Paris and Italy.
Mimi had started her own cosmetics manufacturing company
Selling creams that cost .25 -.50 to make, but sold for $25. -$50.
I asked her why they were so expensive and she responded
Calmly that when she had tried to sell them at lower prices,
They didn't sell. People seemed to think that low priced cosmetics
Could not be of a very good quality or of any real value.

Mimi had shot a bear while hunting with her father at age 14.
The bear's head and coat lay beneath a Steinway baby grand
In the living room of the log house.
I would lay down next to the bear and
Make a fearful study of his fierce eyes and teeth,
Or alternately pet his fur and talk to him like a pet.

There were glass cabinets filled with red French crystal,
Limoges dishes and chests topped with decorative plates from Vienna
Filled with silverware, next to a grandfather clock and
Man size floor lamps of velvet and plaster from Venice
Situated on either side of the rarely used fireplace. 
Antique furniture from Italy filled the house
Old dark paintings, and pictures lined the walls.
Like in the story books, the old log house seemed
Much bigger on the inside then it looked from on the outside,
Also, the air seemed fresh and cool inside, instead of musty and dusty.

Mimi warned me don't get your fingers near the mouse traps,
But I didn't listen, in my search for lost treasure
I would find my little hands in trouble when reaching behind things.
Don't go into the woods, she told me, there are wolves in there.
I couldn't get myself to quite believe that,
But perhaps I believed just enough, because I stayed out of the woods.

Mimi never came out or went anywhere without looking sharp
She always wore a beautiful print dress of modest color.
Mimi carried a matching handbag and formal shoes.
She had fox and ermine stoles, dazzling jewelry,
And the most fabulous hats with peacock, ostrich and pheasant feathers
Made almost exclusively in various parts of Europe
And yes, she often wore an apron as well.
Across the road lay Mr. and Mrs Boyle's acres.
Mr. and Mrs. Boyle had been good friends of
Mimi and Baba's (grandfather's) for many, many years.

Mr. Boyle took my hand and led me through seas of green clover,
Shin deep for as far as the eye could see; nothing but beautiful clover.
Mr. Boyle would reach down and pick up a sprig of clover.
As we walked on, he'd do it again, one after another, and so on.
He showed them to me and explained that every day
He would find some of the rare four leafed clover.
Sure enough, when I looked
All of the clover he had picked had four leaves.
Mr. Boyle how'd you do it? I asked.
Well, they say four leaf clover are good luck,
So I guess it's just good luck, and good eyesight,
He said, as he glanced down at me with his
Red cheeks and round nose, boyish face,
Combed back white hair, and thick black-rimmed coke bottle glasses.

I loved his white short sleeved button down shirt.
Mr. Boyle wore black suspenders, dark gray pants and shiny black shoes.
He always seemed dressed up,
As if the clover field was a place of worship,
And he was there to pray and sing songs to his maker.
Were these farmer's clothes I wondered?

There was a mysterious little white house on Mr. Boyle's acres,
Like something out of a fairy tale, big enough for 2 people.
He showed me inside and I was surprised to be greeted by
Dark cool air, Mr. Boyle pulled on an unseen string
And voilà, in a blink of an eye, there was light.
As I looked down I saw in front of us a little white picket fence.
Looking past it, I was surprised to find a pool of deep clear water.
This is our well. He said. It's where we get our drinking water.

Then Mr. Boyle reached out and retrieved a large metal ladle
That was hanging from the ceiling and with his other hand
He pushed down on a large metal lever and
Pumped some water from a boy sized spout
Shaped like an upside down J into it's cup.
The spout and lever were attached to a metal post
That came out of the ground next to the well.
Taking it from him I drank it down.
Boy, this was way better than my grandparents well water.
I thanked Mr. Boyle and we left the little house.

Mr. Boyle was what the grown ups in those days referred to
As an "Old Timer." If there was one thing those old timers
appreciated more than anything else, it was a pump
And a ladle full of cool fresh well water.
Everywhere one went, during the hot summer months,
Among friends and sometimes strangers,
One could expect to be offered a metal ladle brimming
With what one needed to quench a powerful thirst
On those blistery,  humid summer days.

Back across the road I heard some squawking
I arrived to find that my Grandfather, whom we called Baba,
And my father were making efforts to prepare our dinner.
Off came his head with the help of a little hatchet.
I wondered out loud, how does it keep running around
Like that without a head?
My father made a joke and then explained that
It was just a last gasp of nervous system response,
Like a spasm or something and somehow I understood this.
Don't ask me how, I was only 6 or 7 at the time.

Baba would take me out in one of his vehicles,
One was black and the other one was red, twins
Big Chevys or Caddys? low to the ground
With 2 doors and big fins on the back
Capped with space age looking red lights,
And a slight bulge on the trunk lid where a spare tire was hidden.
It reminded me a little of a grown-up's tummy.
They seemed to hum when he drove them on
Over bumps, through the grass and up in the fields.

We stopped at what seemed to me a towering tractor
I was a little afraid of the thing, but it just stood there
Like a big green monolith frozen in time.
Baba poured some of what he called corn alcohol
Down into a hole that a rag had been stuffed in earlier.
 It had a strong awful smell that I found hard to tolerate.
Would you like to ride? He asked. Sure I would, I said.
Baba helped me climb up to where I could,
Then he lifted me up further and onto the seat.

He had his overalls on with his work gloves, and boots.
Baba seemed to be the only person out here who dressed
Appropriately for the occasion of farm and land work.
Chug chug chug sputtered the engine, and we jolted forward,
Baba driving with his arm around me, making sure I didn't fall off.
What a pleasure to ride up so high on the rumbling behemoth,
Me surveying the world, waving at the cars and Baba grinning with delight
We could hear the swish as the tractor passed over the tall grass.
The tractor would occasionally stall and Baba would fiddle with the clutch.
We went passed an old blackened wood frame and I remembered
That Mimi had told me about how she and Baba had to have the fire department
Burn the chicken coop to the ground when it became infested with lice.

Baba liked to read his New York Times on the sun porch of the Log house
With a cup of coffee, a pack of Pall Malls and a flyswatter
Swoosh ssslap! 1 fly. Swoosh ssslap! 2 flies. Swoosh ssslap! 3 flies, and so on.
Little ones, green ones, red ones and big black ugly biting horseflies.
If the country had too much of anything dead or alive, it was flies.
Baba would look down at me with his knowing spectacled eyes
Then holding out two down turned fists he'd burst out with - Guess
He made sure that I always guessed right, turning over his fist
His hand would open up to display a quarter in his palm
Wow, I squealed,  a quarter? For me? I gave him a big hug.
He smelled of tobacco and felt warm, loving and soft

His family had owned produce yards in the city by the river.
They also had a boiler furnace factory, first in the country steel works
And  later downtown in the main city as well.
Both Mimi and Baba had gone to private schools.
As a young man Baba had gone off to, and later graduated from, Yale.
Baba came from a large family with many brothers,
All of whom had passed on before I had a chance to meet them.
Many, of Mimi and Baba's siblings never married.
Baba's youngest brother had died in a car accident
While out joyriding with all the siblings.
The car had somehow been forced off the road by another vehicle,
Baba was the driver, and it was said that he never was the same again.

Soon it was evening and as we sat around eating chicken and steak,
With baked potatoes, corn, beans, coleslaw, ice tea, and lemonade,
Dad told us all about how when he and mom were newlyweds
They had lived in an apartment above the garage,
Not far from the log house, and how he thought he had seen a space ship.
Dad was full of stories and he loved to entertain us with them.
Dad said he was going over to the log house for breakfast or shower
Early one morning before sunup; and while in mid-stride,
Just about half way between the house and garage, he noticed it;
Something strange in the swamp behind the log house.

It was really more of a picturesque marsh than a swamp.
But that's what everybody called it; " the swamp."
Ducks, geese, grouse, deer, snakes, rabbits, frogs, salamanders
And little birds made their home there at different times of the year.
Dad said he had seen multi-colored lights swirling round and round.
He thought it must be a flying saucer that had landed in the swamp
Even my father, who was not afraid of anything,
Accept hunting and shooting an animal, and also,
By his report, attending College, was shaken up.

Dad had told us of his one and only hunting trip,
Where upon having a large buck lined up in his sites,
He had become shaky and could not pull the trigger.
He had also once told me that he never went to college,
Because he was afraid. Dad who had been through World War II,
And who I had seen catch a water moccasin by hand and cut off it's head,
Who had been bitten by a rattlesnake at the Grand Canyon
And did not even realize it until two days later
When he was at the doctors office with a swollen leg,
The man who stood next to bears and moose at Yellowstone and Glacier Park,
With me by his side, in order to take their picture,
Who never backed down from even the burliest of men,
Afraid? How could that be possible? I thought.

Dad's father had died when he was only a young teen.
His surrogate father, a friend of the family, was a medical doctor.
He had offered to pay my father's way through medical school.
Dad had declined, explaining that his friend and benefactor,
The Doctor had a remarkable photographic memory.
Once my father had asked him a question about something
And he reportedly told dad that he would find the answer to his query
On the 237th page, 2nd paragraph, in a book on the third shelf from the top,
To the left hand side of the bookshelf upstairs, titled encyclopedia etc.
To dad's amazement there it was, just as the Doctor had said.

Dad reported that he was very intimidated by this
And thought that in order to attend college
One must have to have a photographic memory.
So dad never did go to school but, to his credit,
He produced a myriad of publications in various venues;
Newspapers, magazines, research journals and papers,
Books, TV videos, artistic and scientific photography and films.
He had taught at many universities, and had given lectures and seminars
around the world, and had performed research for many companies
before his career had ended; all that with a high school education.

After thinking more about the swamp incident later that day,
Dad came up with an alternative explanation for what he had seen,
One that wouldn't make him sound crazy, or gullible: swamp gas.
That's right, you heard it, the theory was that methane would bubble up
Through the water from decaying vegetation underneath its surface,
And rise up into the damp mist interacting with the nitrogen and oxygen
Present in the atmosphere to create a phosphorescent glow and swirl of colors.
I didn't understand all that, so I thought what any kid would;
Namely, that my dad had probably seen something.
I always tread softly around the swamp after hearing Dad's story,
Always gave it long hard looks, but never saw anything,
And most importantly, I never ever set foot into it, as I was convinced
That when I did, I would surely sink down into it and never be heard from again.

Well, soon mom and dad decided that it was time to head back to the city.
The activities of the day had caught up with me, now tired and heavy
I cried to see the day end, to leave the farm and country,
To have to say goodbye once again to Mimi and Baba,
Leaving meant going home and then having to go to bed.
Then we climbed into my parent's 1950s taxicab, once yellow
But now repainted green, it was a thoroughly novel family car.

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We all waved our goodbyes out the windows and drove away into the  distance.

As I listened to the engine whine while the car flew along,

And watched the broad-faced speedometer needle glow and climb,

In the black warm darkness of leather seats and family,

I fell asleep and dreamed of the day's excitement, our family,

The song of the engine, the light of the dashboard, the silent road...

Then, I thought I heard the crackle of the radio announcer's voice,

From somewhere far across the darkened fields.

An ensemble of sights and sounds

Playing a soothing lullaby,

Soft the Rhythm,

Calming me..

Enraptured

Rhapsody

In the ...

night.

The Incredible Shrinking / Invisible Man - with audio

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There comes a time when words are no longer heard
Actions have less and less energy
They produce fewer and fewer results
Dreams become screams and calcify
Unable to escape the vision and become reality
So we stumble and they tumble, rolling away
Like lost teeth awaiting the arrival of a fairy
Skipping off into oblivion like schoolchildren at play

Then comes the incredible shrinking man
The possibilities seem endless until they are not,
As the road of the way narrows
Like Balaam on an ass that lay down between two walls
We curse and whip at the wind and become smaller
Because we cannot see the Angel, who blocks our path
Cannot know the outer limits of things like one's life
Lawlessness and killing abound, shall not someone
Or something be angry?
The conscience seems weightless and insignificant
Against the inevitable anarchy of decay that
Unfolds and scatters like a venomous snake and so

We look on from the sanctity of our silent place
While the restless world of discontent is not satisfied
It moves to accuse us of our race and God
Crowds appear to inform us in every venue
You don't matter, We can't see your point,
There is no God but power, avarice and death
The tides of humanity push him out of the round
Until a fault is called and he is defeated
As truth and history are rewritten he shrinks a little more
Until at last he is invisible.

The invisible man does not exist anymore, no substance to see
He is no longer the target of advertisements
No longer the consumer of choice, he has no money
No pills, no lawsuits, no goods to buy, no one to impress
The invisible man cannot be bought or sold,
No longer is he a known commodity
Nor can someone ride his tired back anymore
The politicians cannot tell him what is right and who to hate
They have muted their voice as he can no longer absorb their lies
He is a lost demographic because
His body can no longer feed a business

The invisible man is both irrelevant and unworthy
The lust and power of youth are lost to him
Humbled low, he sees the dandelion once more
But let no one weep, as he is now free
To know himself, his fellow kindred spirit, and his Creator
At once invisible, but yet so present
He has become a vessel for that tiny spark
A seed of life that once released
Grows deep within the substance of being
Watered by the heavens above
Empowered with Spirit
Until that which is unseen
Halts time and Renews ALL!

F-utility - with audio link

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Why carry the burden
When someone else takes
What has been wrought?

Why reflect
When entertainment is there in waves
To drown the inner voice?
If buying that thing
Will it last?
Will it not have a blemish?
Will it satisfy?

Quiver not the liver
When atrocities are committed
Against the meek
Leaders ignore such
To think is a bothersome thing
When the society dictates the thoughts

If there is a God
Does He command murder,
Deceit and perversion of justice?
No,
But if there is evil,
Wickedness demands the same of its adherents

Why be religious,
When so many have worked so hard to change blue to red?
Anger rages against injustice
But slaps the face of those who call upon the Name
Stifling voices make alien and an outsider
Of all that which is true and heals

Why plan the future?
Do not the pitchmen point the way?
Do the tyrants, kings and world's owners
War, blacken and take?
Fear not,
For their end has been prepared,
And death comes to all

Why hope for change?
Is not the change that comes
Worse than what was?
Save and spend, get and give,
Play and be played, usury and bankers print

Why shed a tear?
To give the hard ground false hope?
Why does the sky brood?
To make a mirage for the bedouin?
Should the eye explore
The deepest mystery?
To know the number of things?

For ocean upon sea and sky upon earth
Comes with coral, and silt
In tides and mountainsides
Valleys are laid low and civilizations past
Yet tiny dominance
Seeks to last

The spark yet flickers,
The sapling bruised yet grows
The wild vine grows
The olive tree thrives in the rocks
And the fig-tree blossoms

The great spiraling
Unfolding
Wind of Truth
Blows
Blows away the old

So many myriad schemes
Little hearts and minds wonder
What of me?
Entropy of the old fades
Memory of it dissolves
In the fiery heat of purest gold

New life and creation bursting
Old seams of existential staleness
Melting
These pale things cannot endure
The ground shifts
Death, decadence and time are broken

Can there be a wonder at change?
And its call to end futility?
F-utility and the status quo!
Something Infinite comes
To crush that which is finite,
With a finality
Everlasting

Why cry out?
Because there is One
Who may listen and answer?
Are humility and humbleness come?
Fraternal guests?
Be still then
For in that place
There is peace.

Alive and Breathing and Bigger Than Life - with audio

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Alive and breathing and bigger than life

The freedom to grow like a ray of light in the great expanse of this world

Or to lie vacant and vacuous in the virtual claim that has laid hold on the soul

How is it that we can prefer empty repeated critiques of others so eloquently born

As to fly across the world and back again in an instant

No fresh air is to be found there, nor the cry of something living

Only a silence to break ones heart at its being and essence

Is that what we must be fated to and how is it that we have given ourselves

Given our time and substance so freely to that which is not real

Which does not really exist or have blood and breath

My arms reached out my soul grew large until I inhabited the place of beating wings

My legs sank deep 50 feet down into the earth

I felt my chest heave until it loomed wide over the neighborhood

I saw the policeman look up from his motorcycle and ticket writing

The people walking through the pathways under the feathery treetops

This then is our destiny without limitation of space, stagnant form and matter

Not to engage in endless meaningless chatter of unanswered scribble and blather

For a few glimpses into the lives of our distant loved ones

We are willing to die a little, and then a little more until we bellow

As hollow and as loudly as a distant bell tolling to the sudden jerk of a cord

Give up, oh give up, I say,  surrender the right to be right

The hubris to put all others down because of their wrongs and because of my searching and wondering ignorance.

I want my own kind, to seek that which wells up in a river of life, that which lives and loves, and prays… To speak the Truth with singing, Spirit, cursive and Word.

I grow, I live, I expand, hovering over the landscape as if to scoop it up in my arms

Crying out in a place where sound can be heard without digital assistance

Looking up I soar into the azure field flooding over the burnt mauves, flowering pinks, and gentle calming grays;
Through the misting sheets of cold and dewy white.

The deep dusky purples call out their threats, taunts and challenges

Be still darkened ones and bring about the renewing, refreshing squalls and showers.
Cleanse all the face of the earth.

I rise up ever higher arcing over the horizon with the barrel chested winds
My body stretches out like the northern cross against the spectrum of mercurial light
There in silent waves to contemplate with the pulsating warrior Orion
Riding upon the back of the charging solar breeze
Passing through the horns of Taurus, onward to kiss the Seven Sisters
Showers of love and luminous blinding radiance reaching out to heal
While the darkness continues to melt away, cringing, scattered, dying
Before the presence of the vast saving heart that beats out the Cosmos
Where the Seven Spirits dwell who witnessed the first spark of all creation
To the One who holds all things together and designed the final new beginning

Passing through all, hoping all, forgiving all, with an exuberance yet unspoken

Feeling the pain and joy of a myriad of those with light and being

Raise me up oh Lord, now and at the end of days that I might cradle some

That my eyes might see through tears the souls of others and behold my God

There among the lightning, rainbows, and fiery Nova's refining heat 

Then I can fall into the eternity of your highest love while fearing not to care

Withholding not my hand to do all that is set out before the quantum of time

Before the never-ending sight of the heavens above and all the Holy Host.

A Day of Seasons - with audio

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Peaceful Shadows
Patient light
Winter dawn
Shattered colors

Faded Heaven
Icy fingers weep
Grey headed frost
Praying rigidly
Clenching teeth
Hugging sweatered soul
Crunching walk

Turned muddied steps
In melted grass
Sun is out,
Yet air is misty
Bits of thoughts
Fly in pink sky
Sleep flees away
Leaves us now

In vapors musty

Morning in clover
Dew on buttercups
Feet cold and wet
Dirty bottoms,
Wet tops
Peace in green
Life in heat
Spring in song
Singing rainbow
Clear flowing water
Chirping Sparrows
Cooing tardy
Morning doves

A crow calls out
His off key song
Rouge pollen petals
Hearts without loving
Till crystal teardrop
Should adorn each
The torrent sounds
Yet the violet
After the storm
Stands regal once again
Tempering Brilliance
So softly sounds beauty

Braided green
Budding Birth
Oh fattened Butterfly
Hello Mr. bee
Shimmering and fuzzy
In the sunlight preening
Take your time and clean
I won't chase you
Rest while you may
Until you fly away

The sunbeam pierces
The cool stream
Reflection yielding not
The warm hand of One
Cleansing the life within
Drifting in the quiet

Gliding Hawk
Tracing out the
Turning warmth
Flax gold swaying
Hot wet spirit
Black moist earth
Cloud floats in blue
Watercolor view
Summerset afternoon

No more orange rays
The sun slips down
Other side of the horizon
Orange, reddish leaves
Let loose like falling stars
Skyward honking vanguard 
Geese flying south

So tempting,
The Autumn air
Holds one captive
Filling the senses
Pure damp cool life
Wrapped in darkness
Shades of night
Standing in the earth

Canopy of whispers
Feeling life flowing

Sap deep within
Mighty oak and pine
Wooed by the fire's story
Quickened restless limbs
Stretching toward a star
Only a pine needle away
Warmed by existence
One of many in a great house
Seemingly silent.

Feral Fellow - with audio

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Thursday came in the cascade of days
It rained down like an avalanche
Rolling down upon eyes that
Could not see the oceans blue sky
For the mists that yet rested
In the minds valley
(pause breathe) Ahhhhh

Come now and walk upon the rocky peak
Wind on down through the hollow
Pass under by the mild mannered Ponderosas
Upon the dust and dirt worn path
Up around the bend and back again
Aching hinge and stubborn ligaments
(pause breathe) Ooooo

Pour down the social cup
Piece together the puzzle
Of the yet tender day
Purposefully proposed thanksgiving
For those loved, lost and living
As peace can make a home in that place
(pause breathe) Mmmmm

Journey beyond the morning garden
To another of worker bees and marching ants
The telltale signs appeared announcing
His presence, that feral fellow
He was there though out of sight
Fowling up the bushes and corners
(pause breathe) Tisk tisk

Wallowing in the throws of life
Vacant uncaring blue eyes
Scanning sunbeams awash in warmth
Desiring nothing, needing no-one, cleaning sullied paws
Coming near he speaks an empty greeting
Listlessly forgotten the days of bloodied prey
(pause breathe) Umhmp

Swatting at a fly, capturing a cricket
Earnestly hunting down an old lizard skin
Rustling in the breeze and thorn
But these are the secrets of another creature
How dare one condescend to put to pen
That which is forbidden, and primitive
(pause breathe) Sigh, .. oh

Is he in his unkept imperfections
Not, but a shadow of ourselves
Does not the pool of words
Give cause for one's own reflection
Oh Diviner of hearts were it not so
That colored inklings should so paint another's expression.

^{Pslam 103:14-16}

¹⁴ For he understands how we are made,

he remembers that we are dust.
¹⁵ Yes, a human being’s days are like grass,
he sprouts like a flower in the countryside —
¹⁶ but when the wind sweeps over, it’s gone;
and its place knows it no more.

Psalm 8: 4-9

(3) When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers,
the moon and stars that you set in place —
5 (4) what are mere mortals, that you concern yourself with them;
humans, that you watch over them with such care?

6 (5) You made him but little lower than the angels,
you crowned him with glory and honor,
7 (6) you had him rule what your hands made,
you put everything under his feet —
8 (7) sheep and oxen, all of them,
also the animals in the wilds,
9 (8) the birds in the air, the fish in the sea,
whatever passes through the paths of the seas.

Life, Death and Remembering Our Loved Ones - with audio

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"... Lay me down like a stone, O God, and raise me up like a loaf,"
- Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace, Ch. XII

I received the phone call full of restrained words, that they had taken ill 
The soft voices, spoken prayers, eternal hopes, miraculous dreams
In that stillness of shaken hearts we wished and offered our support
Part of us knowing the certainty of sadness to follow
A little while longer and our loved one was gone; taken from us

Retreating into the garden of quiet wandering and drifting thoughts, 
I began to reflect on the Following; Sleep comes to us all, covering us, 
As we slowly struggle and fall, with an Irresistible Blanket of peace. 
Each winter season brings its news once more and only time Serves to Cushion the blow, 
Till it becomes like a bell tolling in the distance. 
Our friend has Overcome Great hardship and we now join in this endeavor 
With help from one another, and A loving hand from above.

The motion of leaves whispering before the storm
Is it not like the footfall of those we now recall?
Faces turned to shades of memory hidden in the heart
As moonbeams hiding in the folds of satiny clouds
Announce the great light's silhouette, though it be obscured

Are not the raindrops that fall out of heaven's door
Messengers that come to refresh the land and its people?
To bring good news upon the great and small of life and of cleansing?
Are they not but a mirror of our tears and the outpouring of our hearts and souls, 
Renewing the deepest parts of each, helping each to love one another?
For a seed has been brought to bear in the earth, to grow blossoms and fruit
So that now the landscape is peopled with plenty, and each bosom is full.

So precious is that which cannot be bought or contained, in the sight of the Almighty.
That which is sent from on High and then returns again on the wind unseen
As it has been said "For a little seed must fall to the ground in order to give life"
The great and beautiful community of lights is made up of these, 
as are our families and Friends gathered in this place.  
The mustard seed has done what the Husbandman Intended, and we have witnessed it.  

It has Grown up into a vast network of love, Of sowing, of harvesting and of abundance here today. Are not the words and deeds of those remembered here with us now, as the sunshine that comes after the showers to warm and brighten all things? Do we not see the gifts of our loved ones expressed in the faces of our friends and family?
When we do, our Maker walks with each one, and holds us for a little while
And so we celebrate the diamonds mined deep within the earth,
The gleaming of purest gold, the sparkle of dazzling jewels and the fine color painted tapestries, as we look upon the treasures of life, and celebrate those who've left us.

The good are taken from us, as the world cannot countenance them any longer
It turns away from the evening, only to behold the dawning of a new day elsewhere.
Each friend is like a fine wine, rich in sweetness and royal color, satisfying the Heart And calming the mind. Gathering together, each enjoys the blessings of one another's company, And in this way joy shall overtake our sorrow, until it is time to rest. 
So it is then, That we in this life should be like a loaf of braided egg bread, 
Sprinkled with the laughter of our Children, friends and loved ones, 
Like poppy seeds, sesame seeds, and raisins.  
When Looking upon It one sees not the beginning, nor the end, 
But rather, only, the sumptuousness of its sun-like yellow, 
The filling richness of its doughy taste, and the exalted Pleasure of its Rising. 


 

Chasing Life - with audio

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When I was a little child
I chased my food

As a young boy
I chased my friends

While I grew
We all the chased the sun

Later on as a teenager
I chased the rainbows

When I was a young man
I chased the girls and many dreams

As I got a little older
I chased marriage, home and community

While a father
I chased after my children and my love

Later on in midlife
I chased success and vanity

Sometimes, I chased futility

When I was a little older
I chased black cars, souls of loved ones, friends and acquaintances

As I continued on in this journey
I chased health and physicians

After I was slowed down
I slowly chased meaning and forgiveness

Later on while laying in the years
I chased the wind

Then, when time and chasing life stopped
I was caught up in a Place, HaMakom

Chastened, made chaste, chased into Eternity.